Thursday, 30 May 2019

A Visit From Some Special People

Last week, my sister and her kids came to visit! (Well, 3/4... Lincoln was at a school event with his dad)

The time I get to spend with them is so precious and exciting. 

We spent a lot of time outside, went to the park, had some water fights, and we even took an adventure to a greenhouse. The kids loved holding Maia and playing together. 

We honestly didn’t do “much”. But we spent some good quality time together which was the best. 










Saturday, 18 May 2019

Happy HalloBirthdayWeen!

Happy HalloBirthdayWeen! Lily turns 5 this weekend and, as upon request, (seriously 7 months ago) we celebrated today with a very unconventional party. We even went trick-or-treating! In May! And a huge thank you to @1023nowradio and the #NowTrucksicle2019 for showing up and providing a special treat for us all! We were a small party but they still made a five year old feel special ❤️❤️
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#happyhallobirthdayween #halloweeninmay #1023nowradio












Wednesday, 8 May 2019

The Unexpected Blessing of a Broken Window

On the day of Maia’s blessing, (and about 10 minutes before we were about to leave the house) we got a notification from our neighbour saying that our van had a broken window. There was an 3/4 inch size hole in the middle of the window with cracks spiderwebbing and it was on the verge of shattering. Justin drove it around to the garage as a precaution and when he shut the driver door the whole thing shattered into the van. 
Needless to say, we were out of a vehicle. 

And I’m not going to lie, at first I was so frustrated and angry. I was already anticipating a stressful week since Justin was due back at work after being off for paternity leave and this sort of stuff does not help with my anxiety. 

However this actually came as a huge blessing in two areas:

1) Justin ended up taking Monday off to take the van in to get the window replaced. This was a huge relief to me since I could now ease into the week. 

2) Turns out they didn’t have the right window so I made another appointment at a different place for the next day which meant I didn’t have to worry about school runs and such on a Tuesday either. 

The auto glass place was in an industrial area so I did have to figure out what to do with 4 kids without a vehicle for up to 4 hours. 

There was a park about a half hour walk away which was such an trek but we did it. The weather was chilly but once we got there everyone seemed to have fun. 

On our way back I stopped by gas station Tim Hortons and had bathroom break and bought hot chocolate for us all. 

It turned out to be a memorable day. 



Saturday, 4 May 2019

Postpartum Stuff

It’s been two weeks since Maia’s arrival and this has been the weirdest, most different postpartum experiences out of all of my children. People ask me all the time how I’m feeling and for some reason, without a thought, the word “good” often rolls off of tongue. But often I’m not really “good”. Deep down, I’m really struggling.   And I’m going to throw all my feelings in this one post... 

I feel like I get really sad about lots of things:

A lot of “lasts”

This is my last baby...  I’m never going to be pregnant anymore which makes me sad. Don’t get me wrong, we are more than  happy with our family of six!  But I enjoy being pregnant. The anticipation, the excitement, the planning, the belly, the kicks. I’m 14 days postpartum and already mourning that I’ll never get to do it again. 

And I’m never going to have another birth again- and yes, call me “crazy,”  but I actually enjoy the labour and delivery process: It’s incredibly empowering for me and to think about it being all done makes me a little sad 😭. I tried to embrace every part of the pregnancy and the birth and now it's all done.


Also, I am mad at myself (or my body) for tearing which I know is a bit silly because there was nothing I could really do. But I felt like it was my last chance to have a “perfect birth” and I felt like my body failed me. I will probably write something later about this because there’s a lot more than physical scars attached to this area. Other than that my birth was so gentle, beautiful and amazing like they always have been. 


Pretty soon, I’ll be done the “postnatal checkups” and discharged from my midwife’s care.  And  I’m going to miss the relationship that I've had with my her... I’ve known that incredible lady for 7 years! She’s attended all four of my births and has literally been there since the beginning of my pregnancy journey.


Even though, I really am excited to start a new chapter in our life, one without diapers, strollers and yes, even car seats, but I am a wee bit sad that this chapter is coming to a close. 

Breastfeeding struggles 

I really dislike breastfeeding. I always have.  It's just not comfortable. But my milk did come in quick (less than 48 hours!) and I have tons of it. Which is nice I guess. But it also can be a burden. I leak and smell. And my bras don’t fit. 

However, I did see lactation consultant and she was really helpful! I’ve seen quite a few LCs in my breastfeeding days but she is by far the most helpful. Her name is Erica Kalke and I wish I had seen her 6.5 years ago! 

Family adjustment 

I look at my other kids and they’re just so big and wonder where the time went. I look at Maia and I get flashbacks of all the moments I had with the others when they were tiny and small.  Then I just want to hold onto Maia a little more because I know she’s going to be right behind them, walking, talking and following her older siblings. 

Adjusting to four kids is a lot harder than I thought and often I feel like I’m not doing my best to spend time with my other kids. 
Oh, and Justin goes back to work on Monday. And I’m not ready. I’m never ready.


Despite the fact that Maia sleeps pretty good for a newborn, I’m sooo tired and the idea getting four kids out the door in the morning to do a school drop off is really daunting. And with Maia’s feeding schedule, I’m probably going to be late everyday which stresses me out a bit.

Going out in public still makes me anxious. Like going to pick up Ella from school. (Justin’s been dropping off this week) I just don’t feel like talking to people.
And having people over? That’s like a whole different story. I’m not ready for visitors even though people keep asking me. 


This is new to me because I’m usually ready a lot sooner but it’s been two weeks and still not ready to be a “people person.” And I know it’s good to have friends especially after a baby. I used to go out all the time with my other babies. I don’t know why but maybe part of me just wants me to embrace my family as it is right now?  Today we went out for a nice family walk and it was so lovely to be out together. I want these moments to last forever...






Postpartum body changes 

The human body is amazing. I just delivered a baby and it is rapidly (I repeat, VERY rapidly) trying to get back to “normal” after slowly stretching and growing and shifting for 9+ months.  But I just feel weird sometimes. 

I get contraction-like feelings in my bowels which I can’t tell if it’s gas or a postpartum thing or if it’s something more serious I need to keep an eye for my pelvic floors health sake. 


I get night sweats so between that and oversupply of milk, I wake up drenched in milk and sweat. Which, lets be honest, is gross. 


Also I have been waking up really itchy. I think it’s because of the sweating. Or maybe the weird weather. (ALSO I AM SO DONE WITH ALL THE SNOW!)


And I thought I was nearing the end of bleeding but it suddenly got heavy again and also my ladybits feel weird...


On a positive side, the afterbirth pains weren’t nearly as horrible as I was expecting!


It has definitely been a weird couple of weeks. There have been lots of crying and tears, and I’m sure there will be more, but throughout all of this I feel like it’s necessary to record  a reflection of gratitude:


• I’m grateful for 4 healthy pregnancies.
• I’m grateful for 4 healthy babies.
• I’m grateful for my body and that it created, delivered and fed tiny humans 4 times. I don't resent it in anyway.
• I’m grateful for Maia. She’s such a good baby and she’s the perfect addition to our family.
• I’m grateful for my midwife and that she could be part of all 4 of my pregnancy journeys.
• I’m grateful that my body is producing milk to feed my baby and I don’t have to stress about undersupply and weight gain.
• I’m grateful for my husband who stayed home for two weeks to help adjust to our new normal.
• I’m grateful for the people in my church and parents at our school who have prepared meals for our family these past couple weeks. This is one less thing we have to think about it.
• I'm grateful for the people who check in and even though I sometimes don’t feel like responding back right away, or don’t know what to say (because frankly, I don’t know exactly what I need) it’s nice to know that they care. And that means a lot. 



My amazing friend was thinking of me when my days were tough

Monday, 22 April 2019

Welcome Baby Maia!

Well she is here. And she is amazing. We are so in love.

Birth story? Well obviously! Here it is!

Prior to her arrival, I was having sporadic contractions for a couple days. They were mostly in the evening and I was able to time them but they were far from regular and frequent. 

However, the morning of the 20th, I was laying in bed and I was timing them at 12-15 minutes. (Gee, doesn’t this sound familiar?...)

By 8 am, I texted Jenn to give her a heads up and that I’d keep her posted. She was at another birth so we were hoping mine would wait out a little. I told her I’d keep my legs crossed! Sure enough, shortly after our brief conversation, my contractions subsided a bit. Jenn could go get some rest and I had some things to do! Easter was the next day, after all... also I wasn’t sure how I felt about my baby being born on 4/20 anyway :P

However, my break from my contractions was short lived. Around 11/11:30, we went for a family walk and this time they picked up again, now around 10 minutes apart. When we got home, we made the kids a quick lunch, put Theo down for his nap, and the girls wanted to play outside with our neighbours' daughter.

I promised them that we would dye our Easter eggs that weekend so they asked me if they could do that with their friend. I set them up with the dyes, eggs and everything else and they went at it! And yes, I was still in early labour... (I had to pass the time somehow right?) They all seemed to have fun but the contractions were getting more frequent (now at 6-7 minutes apart) and also more intense and I felt a strong urge to go shower in hopes to get some relief. The shower felt better but the contractions and the intensity did not subside.

Around 2:45 pm, I informed my midwife that they were more intense and definitely more uncomfortable but I could still talk through them. We agreed to call my mum to pick up the other kidlets because last time picked up quick after they were taken care of.

And we needed the contractions so I couldn't talk through them and she suggested that I walk up and down the stairs to keep the progression.



And so I did. And I didn't make it very far! From the main floor, I walked down to the basement... to the top floor... and then back to the main floor and now they were 3-4 minutes apart and were consistently like that for about 45 minutes.

At this point, the kids were gone and I told Jenn that (and I quote) "The intensity is a bit higher now. I can talk through them but I think I always can talk through them. I also kinda want to screech through them."

Sooo by 4:00, Jenn was on her way.

I told Justin to get the pool ready. (Whoops, we almost forgot about that part.) We did a trial run a week before to make sure it would be all good to set up but when it came time to put water in it, it was a bit of a different story. We have weird European taps so the adaptors that came with the kit didn't fit. So Justin whipped up some contraption with tubes and such but he forgot to tighten them before he turned the water on and so there was some sprayage (is that even a word??) and puddles on our kitchen floor.




Also, the hose couldn't be left unattended in the pool or the pressure would cause the hose to fly all about, spraying our living room. Let's just say that our living room got a nice shower that day... More than once. 😳

Jenn arrived by 4:45 pm. After she set up her equipment, she checked my cervix and I was 7 cm. I decided to labour some more on land because last time I was quite bored in the pool waiting to progress. I walked around the kitchen island for what seemed like a billion times and by 5:30 pm I got into the pool.

Oh. My. Spa. I love the water. It really is nature's best pain relief.

I don't really remember much of what happened next. Everything was under complete control and I felt very confident with how it was all playing out. I was also very tired. I was actually dozing off in between contractions! This was new.

I was breathing through every contraction, and I was still waiting for my membranes to rupture. With my other deliveries, I knew once my water broke, I would have a wee break to recollect myself and then another contraction. With that contraction, the baby drops, crowns and comes out. So I was anticipating this moment.

However, I did not have that wee break. With one ginormous contraction, my membranes ruptured, baby dropped and came out. BOOM BOOM BOOM. I didn't even push.

And I knew I tore. I could feel a sting. Also, my babies' cords tend to be quite short, so as I was waiting for the placenta to deliver, there was a bit of a tug on my ladyness. Which was....Ouch. 😣

But she was here and she was amazing.












I went upstairs to shower and then Jenn checked to see the damage. It was pretty bad. But not "you-have-to-go-to-the-hospital-because-your-ladybits-exploded" bad. Thank goodness. She sutured me up pretty good. I was so tired though. I think I lost a lot of blood and my legs were shaking really bad while she was suturing. I even felt faint in the shower and when I tried put my sopping hair in a quick braid, just that motion almost made me black out. I had to take a break on the bed. Another first. It was weird.

I also almost fell asleep talking to Amy on the phone while I was trying to tell her the birth story. Which I’m probably going to have retell because I have no idea what I told her.

Anyways, besides the tear, it was another amazing and peaceful water birth. And, not toot my own horn, I am so flipping proud of myself. I'm grateful for the opportunity that I have had to welcome FOUR human beings to this world in this way.

We welcomed baby Maia Willow Boisvert on 20 April 2019 @ 6:23 pm. She weighed 7 lbs 9 oz and was 21.25 inches long (my biggest baby!) Our perfect Easter gift!



(and yes, this time the ultrasound was right)













Friday, 12 April 2019

Almost there...

As I’m nearing the end to this pregnancy, I’ve been trying to take the time to really embrace this journey and to focus on the journey to come. The journey, that is, me becoming a momma of four.

I have been also trying to really sit back and just enjoy the moments and to enjoy each one of my children for who they are- Children of God. 

Since the weather has begun to be warmer, and while Ella is at school, I’ve taken Theo and Lily to parks and we try to spend a lot of time outdoors. 

This week, I found it imperative to take each one of them on a little date before the new baby arrives. 

Ella picked going swimming and of course Lily wanted to do the same thing. So I took them separately and afterwards they got to pick something at the dollar store. 

Since they both play so much together (and not so much with me) it was interesting to see how they play and interact individually. I quite enjoyed these precious times.












Wednesday, 23 January 2019

Under the weather

I have caught the dreaded cold that's been migrating in our house. I have been feeling under the weather and especially today. I had a horrible sleep- thanks to a plugged nose, a sore back and an active baby who kept kicking me throughout the night. I think I got maybe a total of 2 hours of sleep. So needless to say, I am so tired. On top of that I have a headache and I feel nauseous today.

I feel like I'm in the first trimester with a congested head PLUS all the joys of the third trimester.

Anyway I had to find a way to stay awake today. I kept the girls home from school today for a sick day and I made some elderberry syrup and fresh homemade bread.

I felt like it's been productive and has helped me take my mind off of my day.







I love my helpers!



Saturday, 19 January 2019

January 2019 Passion Rally

Today, I attended the January 2019 #YLUnites Passion Rally. This time I enrolled the girls in the kids camp so it was fun to bring them along too.

The rally itself was so good. The main speakers were Carla Green and Corey Deacon. Carla spoke about taming stress. Corey is a neuroscientist from Calgary and he spoke about disease prevention.

All the talks were motivating to improve wellness and inspired me to improve my lifestyle.

The girls had fun doing who knows what at the camp! They left with happy faces and we came home late tonight.











Thursday, 17 January 2019

Dazzling

For Christmas, my sister gave me some lovely earrings. They are dangly feathers made out of recycled tires and they are rather quite simple and beautiful.

This sparked some sort of hidden love for earrings! I rarely wear makeup and my hair is usually in a messy bun so I never really feel "pretty" or "stylish." But when I wear earrings, I feel a bit more bright and confident. 

Anyway, I recently discovered a new Canadian company called Newborn Feathers which hand makes all their jewelry. A friend (of a friend) was hosting an online party so I jumped on and I bought a few pairs. They arrived today and I'm so impressed!






Wednesday, 16 January 2019

Cuddles and snuggles

Little Theo isn't feeling well today. He's such a cutie all snuggled and sleeping on the couch. I could just squeeze and smooth his little body all day! He is especially more cuddly today and I appreciate that I get to spend time with him.


Wednesday, 9 January 2019

15 weeks to go

I felt pretty today so I took a maternity photo of myself. I am nearing 25 weeks, almost nearing the third trimester. For the most part, I feel pretty good. Right now I crave avocado toast A LOT! Can't wait to meet this little one in 15 weeks!






Sunday, 6 January 2019

Boisvert/van Bruggen Christmas

On January 3, we headed out and embarked on a journey to Canal Flats, BC. There we would meet up with my sister's family to celebrate Christmas with them. This was a holiday I was most looking forward to this year.

The drive took a bit longer than expected because there was a big snow storm in the mountains and we took the longer route to avoid that.

The cabin that we rented was perfect! It was a lovely log home with many rooms. It had great accommodations and fit all 11 of us comfortably. Everyone was impressed by how stocked the home was. The owners even left the Christmas decor up which was perfect for our occasion. I wish I took more detailed pictures of the place!

We arrived around dinnertime on Thursday night and the van Bruggen's were already there. We settled in and ate supper (which was a yummy Mexican casserole that Gerrit made.) The kids had so much fun together. After they went to bed, us adults wrapped the "present ball" and played a board game.

The next morning after breakfast we opened gifts. There was so much love in the room. So many thoughtful gifts were given. After the gift exchange, Amy prepared a bunch of crafts and we all crafted for a long time. There were gnomies and candles and lots of little brilliant creations made by all. Crafting took us into the great of the afternoon, some kids played upstairs, some played downstairs. They went outside to roam the yard which had a play structure to climb on. There was apple cider and snacks and before we knew it, it was supper time! Justin and I made soup and we brought buns for dinner.

After dinner, we settled to the living room to play the "present ball" game. There were dozens of wrapped gifts wrapped into a big ball and taped up. The idea is kind of like "hot potato" and when the music stops, the person has to rip open the ball and find a gift. It kind of turns into sheer chaos by the end but everyone had a lot of fun.

After the final remnants of the ball had been cleaned up and everyone was satisfied with their treasures, we had pumpkin pie. Yes, from our beloved, lowly pumpkin that we grew in our garden this year. It was delightful. Amy also brought cookie dough so we ate delicious homemade cookies as well.

The night was busy and the kids were tired and everyone fell asleep rather quickly. Us adults stayed up a little longer, snuggling by the fire and having some "grown-up" conversations. It was lovely.

The next day was home day. The morning was full of getting ready, organizing and packing up. We said our goodbyes,  embraced and lots of tears were shed by a pregnant, emotional auntie. Saying goodbye is always the hardest 😞

We then began our long journey home. The scenery was beautiful and the weather was sunny. We came home late Saturday night, exhausted. All of us had no problem heading to bed that night.

Overall, it was the most perfect getaway ever. ❤️

















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Till we meet again, mountains.